I sit here in this chair, and I realize I just go through the motions with everything without actually living out what i think and know and feel. For the last few months I know that I've simply not been here. Everythings shut down for me, my emotions, former mentality, mature spirituality, and even my physical self. I'm not only not doing wht I should, I'm not even doing what I want...Mostly because I dont even know what that is.
As cliche and trite as it sounds... i really need to "find myself". But i dont want to waste so much time doing it. I don't know what's happening. I know what I want to do withy my career life, that's not the problem. But my morals, friends, and everything else that once stood firm are rapidly changing and caught up in a jumble of utter confusion.
So, i guess i just need to finally just CHANGE. before i end up crashing from this spiraling downfall.
I'm on the right track...
admittance is the first step, right?
If you think about individually we only really have a responsibility to our selves to keep ourselves alive.. after that its our choice entirely with what we do. I don't think that's in anyway negative but quite the opposite and quite liberating!
If you've nothing to do yourself you can always help others.
...or watch massive amounts of tv like me.